Living in the moment

How many of us live in the moment? Simply being there doesn’t count. I mean to actually soak in each and every last drop of a special moment that we may never encounter again. I feel it isn’t as easy as that for many of us.

Experiences are strange to me. With a cocktail of ADHD, OCD and Tourettes, I find myself thinking about thinking a lot. When I have have a special experience I try not to zone out, instead I force myself to enjoy the moment. This is hard when a portion of this time is spent telling myself to enjoy it instead of just enjoying it. It is the same (for me personally) when reading. Sometimes I find myself concentrating on a line before realising I wasn’t taking in the words at all.

I was reading this short post by croissantsinbed about the good in social media. That if it wasn’t for social media, this specific author has less reason to look for photo opportunities and be creative in this sense. I agree that social media has sharpened my focus to a degree. It however has also made me focus too much and lose focus on the moment.

My first recollection of this was at a gig in 2013. I planned when exactly I was going to hit record on my iPhone and when to end it. I wanted to show the world a snapshot into this personal experience and let them know how much of a great time I was having. Not long after this I deleted the video. I needed space on my phone (probably for another deleted video) and my singing ruined the audio. The gap in memory is eternal. When I was too busy worrying about focus, landscape mode, the back of peoples heads and the lighting, this void will forever be empty. What was the most special moment of the gig for me was the least memorable. I tried too hard to saviour the moment instead of living in it.

Now, I still have these urges to record such moments. I went to another gig by the same band in 2015 and made sure I experienced it fully without my phone leaving my pocket. It was great, but I also had that voice inside my head saying ‘you could be recording this’ which is one I kept shoving away. The other day, I had the same internal argument with myself whilst travelling home from work. I spent a lot of time taking numerous shots and showing them off on social media. Here are the photographs.

There are pros to every con. On one hand, I had to remind myself to gaze out and see the world for myself, the one I was uploading for everyone else to see from the comfort of their home. On the other, I have a great bunch of photos. I can show you and show my grandchildren in the future where I used to live in my twenties. What was a thought process during this ferry ride was that it probably wont be my last. I will take this ferry ride again and the sun will set again tomorrow. If I didn’t enjoy it fully today, I can another day. Some experiences won’t reoccur and I need to evaluate when I want to live in the moment and when to preserve that moment forever on a memory card. There needs to be a balance to this.

Social media has been a reason why I have so many photos I can look back on. Was it the reason I stepped outside on the ferry, or was it that I wanted to experience nature at its most beautiful? I hope it was the latter, however having to ask this very question shows just how present social media is in my life, and the lives of others.



This blog is my punching bag. Instead of unleashing my thoughts and views onto social media accounts, I wanted to find a community that actually seeks similar conversation.

Thankfully I have found that here.


I have nothing against social media, other than it’s ability to draw me into endless scrolling. It is the escape that so many people need in communities that would not accept them otherwise. It is the place in which certain people can be heard or want to finally have a voice without worrying about a backlash.

I have seen so many people defend religion in the aftermath of events. Lets not blame every theist for religious violence but what about the instances in which such criticism is justified? Religion cannot be moral all of the time. Lets take into account the millions of people suffering right now as you read this sentence. Those without rights, those punished for not abiding by controlling religious laws whether they want to or not. The slaughter of humanist bloggers and the enslaving of schoolgirls, the homosexuals thrown from rooftops and women punished for being raped. This is where my priorities lie. I do not mind offending those that aren’t exposed to such lives if it makes us think about the real victims. Those that aren’t offended when I tell them their beliefs are false because they are too busy being forced to believe.

Lets remember that an Arabic translation of The God Delusion has been downloaded over ten million times online. Thirty percent of downloads in Saudi Arabia alone. That is a shit tonne of underground reading.

I personally cannot wait for this atheist uprising, sadly I won’t live to see the year 2567.

I hope they party hard.

I don’t always respect nature

Eagle Square, Langkawi, Malaysia.

I have been fighting my instincts fairly regularly recently, I struggle to evade memes triggering feminists and vegans, Christians and Muslims, it seems everyone wants to throw a line out there and its almost certainly going to be a catch. I prefer attempts to offend to be online, it keeps those wanting to throw a spanner in the social works inside the house.

Vegan memes are the ones catching my attention more than any other at this moment. Here is a taster.

vegan meme

It’s comical. I admit, I laughed. However as an atheist I have to consider how vocal these vegans are. I have found the EXACT same memes for atheists…

atheist memes

And why not throw a couple of other militants in there whilst we are at it.

atheist vegan memes

What I have found when going about my business is that I am no more vocal than any religious person. I am less vocal. I choose not to declare my atheism on Facebook or Twitter, I used to until I realised it was a lost cause. People on my social media pages don’t want to hear why I do not believe in their Gods, nor will it have a big impact on their view. They will simply scroll down to the next picture in their feed of sleeping pets or restaurant meals and forget all about my lifelong ponderings of the universe.

WordPress allows me to talk to those that share the same passion and listen to those willing to converse, whether it is against or in favour of my various viewpoints. If it wasn’t for my blog, many people wouldn’t know I was an atheist and 99% of my family and friends don’t know I blog. When I do feed the addiction and click on that Facebook icon I am confronted with many vocal theists. Praising, praying and pleasing God. Strangely enough, when I do state in conversation a lack of belief in a deity I do feel I am outspoken. I am confident it is not because of my constant need to shout from the hills but rather the fact that this may be a shock to the listener. The part where I say I do not believe in God stands out so much more than the cliche ‘so how have you been?’ icebreaker, despite being of equal verbal weight. It is hard not to sound outspoken when everyone thinks the same way in the first place.

So anyway, back to the vegans of the world. I am not one, which annoys me a little. I do try to live by the golden rule. I do not want to suffer in the way my food probably suffered to make it onto the supermarket shelf. I would take vegan criticisms seriously if the people creating such memes wouldn’t scream in terror if they were about to be slaughtered in a similar fashion. They would, it’s common sense to assume so. It’s nature. 

I watched this video a few days back. Not that I am searching vicious bear attacks on helpless animals, however my curiosity got the better of me. If you do not want to watch, a cow gets attacked by a bear showing plenty of aggression.

Warning: Distressing footage is shown.

Many of the comments criticise the driver for honking, an attempt to distract the bear from the inevitable kill. The driver is getting in the way of nature, why should he stop a bear doing what it does best? Point being, don’t get in the way of nature taking it’s course.

This point would be to greater effect if we weren’t so inconsistent. I know for a fact many mocking the driver would change their attitude if it was a pet dog or worse, a person. There would be a drastic increase in those willing to intervene. Let’s move from this predator, switching from a bear to a human. Can you imagine the motivation to intervene if this was a sexual attack, or a kidnapping on another person? Equally as natural in motive, it seems we don’t value nature taking course when it concerns us, or offends us. We pretend to respect nature when in reality we often do our best to stop it in its violent tracks. Nature can be a right fucker, one I do not always respect but always expect.

I personally see myself as a passenger, an observer to nature more than a fan. This doesn’t mean I appreciate it or value it any less, but we shouldn’t deny we attempt to change it as much as we allow it to take a certain course.


I would love for my blog to continue growing. To keep challenging myself and to hear your stories. To develop ideas and to share my experiences with you beautiful bloggers. By following my blog I promise you will put a smile on my face, wherever I am. 


Science is BS

Ah, another day, another dumb comment by an armchair scientist claiming that if science doesn’t know, we shouldn’t listen to science.

This was a comment I found on a video uploaded by a news channel on Facebook today. The video, which I won’t upload (it is pretty irrelevant to this post and will take a very, very long time to find in my feed again), went along the lines of ‘Top 5 body parts evolution left behind!’.

One very knowledgeable Facebooker was very unselfish and took time out of their day to give an opinion. This is that opinion.

I think this bs. Science doesn’t fully understand one subject. There is always much to learn. Each part of you is significant, your body was made to function using these parts. Just Bc science thinks it’s not necessary, doesn’t mean you should believe it. #themoreyouknow

So there we have it! Science doesn’t fully understand one subject, therefore the science used is bull. I will, looking at religious statistics, assume there is a great chance that this person may be religious. And as we know skeptical folks, religion can make us very biased people indeed.

Maybe I am being biased and this person is as skeptical as it gets, only accepting the most convincing of theories held up with overwhelming evidence before accepting something he or she has been told. (Looking back, I am convinced it was a female). But to watch a video and comment without stating what field of expertise that person is, I will assume this person isn’t an expert. Just your everyday gal, browsing YouTube, Facebook and the like claiming things not fitting a personal agenda must be false.

Each part of me is significant, those parts may have originally had a part to play in my overall function. And just because science says it is not necessary, I do not have to agree. I will be drawn to such a claim, when the opposition is this and if you don’t like it, you can kiss my male nipples.

At least then they will serve a purpose.

Mark Zuckerberg is no longer and atheist?

Theists have rejoiced at the news, Mark Zuckerberg has stated he is no longer an atheist as he feels religion is ‘very important’.

I can’t have anything bad to say about the Facebook founder, however I would love to have a conversation with him regarding his reasoning. He is changing the world, I would say for the better, and doesn’t show any signs of slowing down despite his incredible wealth. Is it more reasonable to suggest that being an atheist would damage potential business in the United States, especially with the implementation of a new, very unpredictable president?

It’s hard for me comprehend going back to religion after losing faith. The lack of evidence to entice me, the clear absence of a God leading to people of all walks of life giving their own perceptions and beliefs, often in violence. It’s too much of a messy belief system, (insert any religion here) to embrace again with open arms. A bit like running back to that cheating ex that you still don’t trust but gives you comfort. 

To state religion is important, sounds more like he embraces the idea of religion as a moral structure more than anything. Religion does help many people get through tough times, however it doesn’t help us get to the truth. I’m sure many people of faith will feel they have bragging rights at such a headline, however this does nothing to prove such a deity exists. 

The fact that Zuckerberg feels the need to help humanity surely makes him doubt Gods existence more often than not? I would hope so, even if it is concealed. 

Maybe we should start to worship him, for he is the one pair of hands working that is more effective than the millions of hands in prayer.

God struggles to do what humans can do with ease

The existence of David Beckham isn’t being debated in lecture halls. It isnt filling forums and comment threads. Why does Google predict I am going to ask if God exists and have confidence that I won’t ask the same for a global superstar?

Well, much of this is down to search popularity. The predicted autocomplete searches are largely down to regular searches. It seems the existence of David Beckham isn’t a popular question asked in the search engine and one of these reasons is his social media presence. Beckham’s Facebook Page has over 54 million likes. If people want to see what he is up to next, they will know pretty soon. If people want to catch him in person, I am sure it is possible with enough dedication. This goes for any high profile person. Unless they want to hide away, using Snowden as an example, they get in touch regularly. If they don’t, we ask why. Beckham, to the best of his ability, has rendered the question unworthy.

What would be very strange, is if his agent started to speak to fans on his behalf. If every Facebook post went along the lines of ‘Remember, David loves you!’ or ‘David is thinking of you right now, even if you can’t talk to him’. We would immediately question why this is the new norm. I am very confident such a disconnection with his millions of fans would be a terrible decision with negative outcomes.

If we are truly honest with ourselves, we debate the existence of God because there is a huge amount of dissatisfaction towards his efforts. It is that or there is very little to say he is there at all. I agree many of us aren’t happy with the evidence provided, this does not mean that we are asking too much and should change our attitudes. If God was working to the best of his ability, we wouldn’t have to doubt personal religious experiences. That feeling people of faith have inside. The deeply personal feeling that does not provide answers nor relevance to a wider audience. Snowden, a man on the run, still has enough presence in our lives to convince us that he exists. A challenge too great for God.

Why do we expect less from the one we believe is capable of so much more?

This is why I blog

For a species that hates violence, we sure do love to support it! Social media is amazing. Everyone has a voice and we can chat to anyone of any distance. We view news stories from all angles and watch the most amazing videos. Saying that, material that we deem innapropriate gets flagged as such. I know if I was to upload a video of animal cruelty, bullying or murder, I would either be banned or have my account suspended. So where does the following image sit on the moral spectrum of uploaded material?

My first contention is what we see immediately. Three males brutally executed after being nailed to a cross. What is it about this image that we deem to be family friendly? If this was a man on his knees in an orange jumpsuit or in the gallows, we wouldn’t hesitate to report it. Secondly, it’s a threat of eternal punishment. Is it our struggle to comprehend a duration of time to endure such misery that we allow the threat to go without protest? This image isn’t just accepted, it is being shared by parents, teachers and the like. If this is a picture we take pride in sharing, why do we despair when we hear reports of horrific violence towards others?